Muackz!Muackz!Muackz!

2007-08-17T14:19:00.000+08:00

Mi N Dear dear

2007-08-17T13:44:00.000+08:00

Ps Ps... Blog die veri long ago... Haha... No time mah... But nw i am back... Since office can use of cos mus li yong... Haha... 2day so happy... Cos later mitting dear dear... Goin eat, walk walk, watch movie... This few day keep callin tok on fone till i sianz... Bt quite relaxing la... Alot of ppl nid call lor... Some more send alot of email... As usual this timing i am alone in the office... All went out for appt.. Haiz... Nxt mth veri veri busy arz... Nid go malaysia still nid go do e stupid event thing... Bt tink it will be fun ba... Some more will stay till veri late... I tink... Mostly aft that hv to go drinkin wi dem... Hw cme admin exe bcme like PR... Cos i dis admin bao ka liao... All things i mus do... Recept, admin, personal assistance, even accounts... Haiz... I work here is pack mountain pack sea(translate hokkien pls...) Haha... Bt is a fun job... Ppl here all veri good... my upstair de office include mi... Onli got 5 ppl some more director not always cme in... Cos wife jus gave birth... Haha... Bt horz... Dwnstair ppl like not frenly... So nv bother tok to dem... Okay tats all for 2day... Later goin take neoprint wif dear dear... Hehe... Oh ya mitting my jolene dear at 7pm office dwnstair. Den mit rachel n dear dear at clark quay mrt at ard 7.15pm... Bring rachel go velvet dragon... She got event there... Den i go shopping wif dear dear.. HAha... Muackz ppl out there looking at my blog... Hee hee... Sorry tat i went missing le... Haha...

Miss mi not? Haha... Long time blog...

2006-11-06T21:30:00.000+08:00

Hey guys... Miss my bloggying... I miss u guys too... HAha... Damn busy goin hv fun.. Nw nan de at hme... Cos whole week got exam... So mus study... Nw stuyin chem... Tmr paper...
Sat n sun was working... OMG... There got alot of cute guys... There is dis guy who look like TOM CRUISE... Bt he seems not interested in gal... Mi n Huiy yi keep walking pass him n smile at him... His face no expression... Haha... Bt aft work on sun... which is ystdy,.. Got few of dis Hong Kong cute guys came approach us... RUGbY player... haha... Aft work go to a bar call BUNGY at Clarke quay wif dem to watch a telecast match on rugby... When dere mus be tinking i got drink rite? no i didnt... Drank coke... Veri healthy... First time at those area drink coke... So surprise myself... Den wanted to bring them go club... Bt unexpected tat almost all clubs close on sunday... Damn surprise... Nw i noe i am a idiot abt clubbings area... Tot dey r open all day week... haha... So ended up we didnt go club n send them back to hotel cos waitin for hui yi frenz to fetch her hme 2gether... We went to e hotel to wait... They were stayin at penisule hotel... (is tat hw to spell... no idea) den aft tat wei xin call hui yi den we go back dwn to wait... Got e no.19 msn... Added him jus nw bt hvnt accept... Haha... So i went hme by cab n slp at 3am... 2day wake up go sch exam... Can tahan sia mi... HAha... Power... Nw waiting for him to accept mi in msn n get e pic tat we took wif him n e guy name ricky... Dey r all from Hong kong... Haha... Wanna visit hong kong lor... dotz... Hope can go... okay blog till here for the day... got to go back to my books... Nitz every1... Dos taking xam... Mus Jiayou worz...

I am confuse...

2006-10-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

Happy day n confuse day... Happy cos of him... Confuse cos of him... Shld i wait n go for it? Or shld i jus treat tat nth happen... I tink he noe my feeling... Bt mayb not... Is jus fren mah... Wat shld i do... To go 4 it... Or jus leave it... I tink is a crush... Bt e feeling seems so real... Is like i dunno hw 2 say... Dun dare to look into his eyes when toking... I dunno y? mayb is a sweet talker... So i fall in 2 his trap... I tink is so... I am veri confuse... Dunno 2 go 4 it or 4get it... Mayb jus let nature take it's course ba... Dis kind of thing cannot rush... E more u go 4 it e more it seems far away... My birthday wish...... I also dunno wat shld wish... Wait till e day cme... den i decide...

Wat a day!

2006-10-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

Omg... Finish all e burning of cd n writing of name at last... Tmr is graduation day le... Dunno wat wi;; happen... Tink will se bu de ba... Although last yr jus join bt will still miss de... Especially every wed de fish... HAha... Our mus eat dish... Hope tmr will be a memorable day for mi ba... dunno wat to write le... Slpin soon... Nitez every1...

Bored...

2006-10-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

Boring day... All i do in sch today was to daydream... Quite boring... Hw to celebrate mi birthday lei?? I also dunno... Tink alone ba... Haiz... Onli goin celebrate di n mei birthday together on sat 21/10/06... Haha... Hope all can go... Hope is a happy 1 lor... Haha... So sianz nw... Bio test... Sure fail... didnt study... aft tat watch movie clip on hw baby form n hw woman give birth... WOman r so wei da... Haiz... Bored whole day... wanna slp cannot slp... Cos xiao di call mi... Den tok a while.. Granny knock door as go buy dinner... So chat wif lynn till 7pm den eat dinner... Watch gong again.. Was a nice show... Bo liao today... help my xiao B take photo... Lynn gave mi on sat (7/10/06)... Is so cute... Hope to get mi da B n zhong B soon... Post e pic let u all see...

Nw continue to bo liao n chat online lor... Sianz... Hope will get wat i wan for birthday... Not those had mention above... Something else deep in my heart...

A post for fri(06-10-06) and sat (07-10-06) on sun (08-10-06)

2006-10-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

Tot to be a happy day... Bt at e very start it was happy... (Fri) We went to mit xiao kai... Mi n lynn i mean... Planned to ti deng long... Bt didnt... We played house of e dead till $26... Haha... First time of my life i use so much on games.... Haha... BAd event happen... Can u imagine a bunch of pri 3 students noe wat is a prositute... N was being said by them tat mi n lynn is prositute... So evil rite.. All we do was to ask wher is a blk n end up to be like tat... So sad... wat can we do... They r jus kids... So we jus let them go... All we do is complaint... Haha... Di(henry) was rite... If u r not 1 y bother... Aft tat we play basketball... Di cme find mi n lynn n xiao kai... Den we also mit up wif jun hao, zhu tou mama(kok leong) n zi qi... For basketball session... We play 4-3... Mi n di n lynn a group den xiao kai, jun hao, zhu tou mama and zi qi a group... Haha... Seems unfair? No la... Is jus a game... Of cos we lose... Bt is a fun match... Aft tat wanna go tong hse... den things happen... Jun hao seems not happy... Cos i bring lynn go drink... (Ya i noe is my fault, she dunno hw drink shldnt bring her go... I am sorry k) Haiz... Den mi n di n lynn left... Dey continue play basketball... We went tong hse... Got shannon, benedict, wei hai and kok hao dere... Aft tat popo came... Den mi popo, di, lynn go buy drink... Den we go park drink... haha... MEr came along too... (Omg... Mer thin alot lor... Congrates...) Aft some drinks... Smth happen... Police came to write dwn our names.. Cos we too noisy le... HAha... Den drama things happen den stay till early morning den go hme... By tat time onli left wif mi, mer, wei hai, tong, di, shannon, lynn and ben... (sat) wake up veri late... Mit wif di n lynn for dinner... Went to cafe cartel... Di ate hawaiin pork chop, i ate grilled chicken.. Lynn ate aunty amy n potato wedges... Ended up mi n lynn didnt finish our food... Haha... Lynn planned to mit Jun hao... Bt jun hao i tink tat jun hao heard tat she mitting mi n my bro he not veri happy den went hme first... (Pls tell mi wat i do wrong) Haiz... Den i dun feel like going hme... Cos argue wif family... Den i go tong hse again for ma jiang wif di n mervyn... I lose $16 haha... Bt okay la... Jiu JIu yi chi... HAha... den play till 7 plus den take cab hme in the morning... Didnt go work again... haiz... Mi so bad... (sun) slp till nite den wake up cos dun wan argue wif family... So jus force myself slp... I dunno y i suddenly change... I tink i am getting bad to worst... Nw online chatting wif zhu tou mama... Haha... He wanna see my blog... So giving him e add... Tats all for e day... I hope i will change back... Wat went wrong wif mi??

Omg!! Mc N KTV time!

2006-09-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

27/09/2006
Omg this is to update ystdy de... Sianz... Sick went to see doc... Wanna see prove... Haha...

This is my quene no... Veri long lor.... Still got 4 person infront of mi... Than i wait till i so bored so go take pic to add in my bloggy... Haha... Aft i get this, dey ask mi go level 2 room 13 to wait for mi turn... So sad... Cos veri unwell...

This is e room 13... Look so scary... I was e last patient left there waiting... SO is quite scary... Like dos ghost movie... Haha.... Aft i tink 30 min... Den is my turn...Omg... Is my turn le... Is so scary lor... HAha... Cos i dunno wat e doc will say... N some more dunno whether they recieve my X-ray report le anot... *Knock* I went in... Is a female doc... I saw my X-ray report on the table... She say got ulcer... Haiz... Bt not veri serious... Jus go eat the med will be okay... Cos i drink too much soft drinks n things that i not allow to eat during menstruation... Haha... Aft this went hme... Eat lasak... Wan mi to die faster... Haha... LAme rite... Bt e lasak damn nice... I wanna eat again... Den i went to room to play com game... DINER DASH... So fun... Haha... Aft tat... I preparing to go tuition... Some1 call... Is my courts frenz(Desmond)... He ask mi go sing... I promise b4 hand n say anything... Bt is was to sudden... Cannot reject cos i say anything... So i jus go lor... No choice... Haha... Went dere... N got who... Lets see...

This is lynn aka Li ying... She is my singing kaki... We both act like siaoz when we singing... Haha... She is wearing Desmond cap... Heard tat it cost $60 plus... will u buy a cap so ex? for mi i wun... Haha... Mi no cap lover... Let see who nxt.
This is Li Ying(lynn) n Desmond... Who suggest to take pic... IS desmond lor... Haha... Does e cap look familiar... Haha... I already say it's his le...

Nw Is mi n Liying(lynn) in e house... Haha... We sing lots of song lor... Haha... Our favourite duet is CAPUCINNO n YI KE REN JING CAI... All by Elva Hsiao haha...

Next on the list... Desmond as usual n new look... Haha... He is Albert... Also frm courts... He had a tattoo on his right arm... Haha... Weird...

Another new faces... New fren... She is Albert girlfriend... MAgdelene... Jus noe her ystdy... She veri cute... Veri friendly... Some more she stay near mi... Haha... Also at pasir Ris... At last got 1 kaki stay near mi le... So happy...

To end of the day... Haha... nOt a group photo bt a photo of mi n lynn(Liying) haha... Cute rite... Haha... Hv fun ystdy... Thx u guys lots...

Jus wanna update... Thats all...

2006-09-26T22:01:00.001+08:00

Omg... I dunno wat to write... Mayb write something like... Hw i help my working fren celebrate birthday... We went to buy a ear ring, pacifier n cakes for him... Den i came out wif buying 2 cakes idea... 1 to smash on him... E other to let him eat... So we ask him to go to a block wif his frenz... Den we follow frm e back.... Haha... We wait for him to finish eating wat he was eating... Den we bring out e 'cake'. It was a strawberry shortcake den we ask him to bite out e strawberry wif out holding e cake... Den we try to push his head dwn bt counldnt... So i take the cake up n smash at his face... (Nw tink back i veri guilty...) Aft tat i when to take out e pacifier den ask him close his eyes n wanted 2 put in his mouth... Bt cos of some things happen i didnt succeed... Bt aft tat he saw it n we ask him to put it in his mouth... N he really do it... (I tink he do tat out of entertaining us) Bt aft all e fun we took out e xtra cake gave him n gave him e ear ring... (He say veri beng...-ear ring) Aft tat there is a last chapter... The reminding cake tat hvnt smash enough was on another guy face aft tat... So tat end everything... Is on e 22 sept... Was a fun day... P.S (We post e video at youtude... We damn bad...)

2day got alot of drama drama things happen... Chinese fasting... First heard of it... Bt nvm... not my prob... Another drama... Was goin singing session tmr... Bt end up no gal wanna go... I also pai sei... Wan go also cannot go... Haiz... Drama day... I also dunno y life so difficult to pass... any1 wanna go for mid-nite study at cine n enjoy a chocolate fondue... Haha... Contact mi... Is dis fri... Cant stop tinking of e fondue...

Jus wanna update... Thats all...

2006-09-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

I am back

2006-09-20T01:43:00.000+08:00

So long didnt blog le... Too busy wif work n very lazy online... Nw days got alot of thing nid to do... some more go shop alot... Mi money earn very fast spent also very fast... So sianz... Nw cannot slp... Tmr get result... Stupi exam... Mi monday (11/9/06) do math paper 1 cannot finish... Stupid hell... Tuesday (12/9/06) do my geo also stuipd lor... Cannot finish... Wednesday (13/9/06) My math paper 2 again idiot didnt finish... Haiz... Thurs (14/9/06) my stupid bio also didnt finish... So wif dis kind of result can pass meh... I dont tink so lor... Some more... i veri sacre lor... I scare i cannot pass o lvl... Hope can ba... Oh ya... I also get to noe alot of new fren when working... Put their pic out so every1 noe them... Haha... Go my frenster see la... Lazy add here... Die i tnk i wan fall a slp le... Anyway to day is my bethbeth de birthday... HAppy 17th birthday ya gal... Mus go jian fei 2gether...

P.S, I really grow fat le meh?? Y every1 say i fat?? So sad... =(

Start all over again! Can i really do it! I am lost...

2006-07-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

Nw... Everything hv to start a new... I had to redirect my life... Singing ya... Favorite.... Bt can i really do it... Life in studies... Can i really make it... Frenship... Can i really be a real good pal.... My family... Can dey accept wat i am nw... I dunno... I am at a lost of direction nw... Can i really help... Sibilings... Am i a good sister to any1... Even if it is big sis or small sis... I am dunno... I am at a lost of words... Wat i am nw... Nth... Jus a idiot... Tat lost in a jungle... My life was always in a mess cos i make it a mess... Can i cme out of this mess... I dun tink so... Can i really lead the life i wan... I dun tink so... Who i can trust... Ppl i trust dun trust mi... Ppl tat i trust make mi guilty... Cos i dun even trust myself... I am at a lost nw... I dunno wat i will become... Can living this world do help mi... I dunno... Can i really leave wifout regret i dun tink so... Am i impt to any1... I dun tink so... Wat i can do nw... I really dunno... Is my life really meant to be like tat... Am i really able to cope wif this alone... I still cant open up to any1... I may seen nth or mayb unreasonable... Bt is tat really mi... I dunno... Cos i really dunno wat ia m like... I onli noe tat i am a alone... WHo can i go to... I dunno... I am being use? I also dunno.. I am hurting some1... I dunno... I dunno anything in my life... I dunno wat i can do... I am at a lost... Can any1 elp... I dun tink so... I dunno wat i can do nw... Jus be myself... Bt i dunno wat i am like? I wanna noe more abt mi... Bt i dun even understan myself... Will any1 noe... I wanna die... Bt is tat easy to die anot... Do i hv e courage... Do i hv the reason to die... I dunno... Am i worth to be a human... I also dunno... My life everthing... I dunno... I onli noe i am living for the sake of living... Tats all... IS every1 hate mi so much including my family... Y do they wanna bring mi to dis world to make mi sufffer n make demselves suffer... Can every1 leave mi alone... Can i not be bother... can i not bother any1... I dunno... I onli noe i had to leave on... Tats all i noe... Am i really so helpless... Am i really a human... I tink i am more like a soul... I dun even noe who i am... Hw will any1 noe who ia m... I am onli living w/o a heart, a mind... or anything... I hate myself... will any1 like mi... I dunno... wat dey see is wat i act out... Who really noe mi... No1... I dun even noe myelf... I sucks... I am a idiot... I am nobody... Nw i dun even noe my name... anything... I jus dunno abt my life...

Am i rite? Or am i wrong?

2006-06-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

I tot to be direct so not to delay n hurt others... Bt i confronted a guy... N he really like mi... Bt i rejected him directly... The prob is he is feeling sad nw... I tink... I dunno whether wat i did is rite anot... Cos i scare tat i hurt him... Bt i dun wan him to waste time... I dunno who to go to... I am afraid tat it will become a joke... I can face him as per normal... Bt can him? I am afraid that he will fell awakward... I dun wanna lose a fren jus like tat... Die wat shld i do sia... Who can help mi... I wanna express it out... N hear some advice... Wat shld i do... Haiz... Damn guilty nw... As if i am a sinner... Veri veri GUILTY... Haiz... If i noe this will happen i did rather like other gals... Keep my mouth shut... Dun be too direct or straight forward... It will hurt ppl... Bt hw am i goin to control... Haiz... Anyway, haiz... Dis feel days tink too much so damn easily get drunk... Haiz... I shld stop tinking so much... Haiz...

Get Over le!!!

2006-06-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

It been so long... I hv get over everything... I noe i shld... Nw wat i am concern is my studies... Wif my studies i can get anything i wan... I will denfinitely get wat i like... So i am still young... I noe wat is impt to mi... My family... I cant let my mummy dwn... My granny, My bro... I love them... So i have to be wat they wan mi to do... frm today... I wun talk abt him anymore... I will hv to concentrate on my study... I noe wat is impt to mi nw is studies... Sorry frenz tat read my blog last time... It was really veri boring i agreed... Nw everything is over n i am rebirth... Haha... Wat i wan nw is all my frenz ard mi n my family... RElationship can wait till i am more stable for it... N is not time yet... My right guy will cme when is time... So i hv to cherish wat i hv nw... They are my motivation... They are the will for mi to stay alive... Good for mi... Like i once say... Life wasnt tat bad for mi... Is i make my life miserable myself.... Soon i will be a new mi... I promise...